rollercoaster

i'm feeling both cbf and restless right now.

on one hand, im quite tired from the past two or so weeks, but on the other i have this aching to change things up a bit.

this week at work i've been at a client down in braeside (which is somewhere past keysborough) so the travelling isn't that fun. a fair trek given peak hour and took me 1 hour 15 minutes to drive home today.

anyway, back to my current conundrum. i worked out while talking to a colleague today as i drove us down to the client from the office, that i had lost the taste for shopping. and those of you who know me, know that i have an appetite to shop. it's so therapeutic. or at least it was.

after attending late night shopping at chadstone yesterday, i realised i really dont know what i want to buy anymore. i spent a good 2+ hours looking around and ended up getting one dvd. and that was only because i exchanged it for a dvd i was returning.

i'm finding it hard to quench my worldly desires these days, there's nothing i really want or need. i mean a mercedes would be nice, but that's a bit far fetched. i dont need to buy casual clothes anymore because im doing the shirt and tie thing five days a week now. i guess i dont mind getting more shirts or ties, but i bought enough during my trip to hk earlier this year.

nothing satisfies me anymore! my analogy to my workmate today was that it was like eating a juicy peach but not being able to taste anything. i think i got that analogy from an episode of seinfeld where kramer loses his sense of taste. it's like that movie pleasantville, where im stuck in a state of colourless, staid and a rigid existence but im longing for it to burst into colour.

i've been thinking for the last 24 hours of what i would really like that would go some way in making me happy. yep that's right, it's down to the basics now, just something that makes me happy. and i've come up with...a holiday.

i have a strong preference for overseas but i really wouldn't mind getting away to a nice place in australia, like cairns or one of those nice islands off queensland. i think what i want now are memories, really fond memories of happy, fun times. and i had a lot of them while i was overseas. now i want that again. so my aim is to travel heaps again. i really think travelling is my thing now. it's just amazing seeing different parts of the world, its nature, culture and people. however it's definitely not that sustainable since i'm working full time now and only have a limited amount of time by which i can travel.

so once again i've come a full circle:
starting off low, listless, apathetic, bored
the identification of the issue
suggesting a solution
enthusiasm gaining momentum about the proposed idea
at the peak celebrate and go "yes! that's it!"
realisation of R.E.A.L.I.T.Y.
...and then back down again.

oh well.

APM 0 - Knowledge of Week

my fingers aren't really working as well as they should be right now, they feel like they're on the verge of a cramp, mainly my thumbs. my forearm is also kinda tight. im still on a bit of a buzz actually, ive got my right and left feet tapping randomly haha

to explain, i just had a bit of a bash on the drum kit at my place. after my first ever drum lesson this morning i went to billy hyde in blackburn to get some sound dampeners for the kit so it isn't ridiculously loud when i practise (which will be a lot more often now - not that i practised before!). realised that i had absolutely no independence with my left foot. tried playing some rock beats with the hi-hat and everything kinda fell apart. it's pretty frustrating really, but has given me heaps of motivation to get it right.

tonight going to play some wii, poker and other games at anna's with high school/uni friends then off to juzzy's to watch the FA Cup final. Man U v Chelsea. it's gonna be huge. if it's not at juzzy's then probably some pub or my place. either way i won't settle for anything less than a decent HD television!

that's about all really. work's going good hasn't changed much, i have a steady workflow now and i dont have to go to the manager or senior to ask them how to do this and that coz i'm not a friggen wetbag grad anymore. well, im still a grad, just not wet behind the ears.

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WONGG 19/5/07

mid may update

days pass too quickly now.

it's already 9:30pm and all i've done since i got home was dinner, shower and teach KJ a new trick (he can shake your hand!).

since last post, i've managed to see three movies! that's been in the space of just over 2 weeks, when i had seen only one this year before that!

disturbia wasn't great, but was entertaining enough. i recommend waiting till it comes out on DVD though.
spiderman 3 wasn't as good as i expected. but it wasn't bad. i liked spiderman 1 better. go if you're curious, because everyone else would have seen it and it's worth it just to fit in into the conversations
the italian which i saw on saturday night was pretty good. didnt know anything about the film going in, other than it was in russian. it was quite cute but a little depressing. and the ending was a tad cliched but overall it was interesting.

work's going alright. starting to get some steady workflow and looking to go out to clients here and there. looks pretty hectic on the planner but hopefully it'll be okay. learning heaps as well.

i think phantom of the opera is coming up soon, looking forward to that. gotta find out from christine when im seeing it. *giggles* "christine"... how coincidental!

really want to see paris je t'aime as well! thought it sounded really good. gus van sandt is one of the directors. and then wai tells me today it was awesome. so, have to see it. maybe tomorrow.

anyway i've gotta start getting ready for bed. haha that sounds so weird. it's too damn early. oh well. have a good one guys.