2H 2008

finally half the year is officially over. and don't i know it best, being an auditor and all - busy season will now be upon me!

i was thinking as i was heading in to work today what this meant for me. i reflected upon the first 6 months of 2008 and thought, "what will i remember of the first half of 2008, ten, twenty, thirty years from now?"

for me i think 1H 2008 was a period of exponential growth, continuing off the back of a rollercoaster 2007. i looked back on my new year's resolutions and i've managed to keep them all thus far. i've also added more convictions and new goals along the way which i've handled as well so it's going well. the challenge for me now is to keep this growth steady for the 2H because i know blistering growth isn't sustainable over the long term, but i'll be happy to have stamina rather than power through now then stagnate for a few years following this.

so i've just gotta keep focussed and repeat my mantra, "push, push, push." i also need to learn when too much is too much. i'm not sure if i ever disclosed my poor sleeping patterns over the last 6mths but it's gotten worse over the last couple of weeks. i have not had one night where i didn't wake up at least once in the middle of the night since mid-june.

take last night for example, i woke up at 4:15am, 5am and 6:20am before my alarm went off at 7:15am. i'm actually used to it now, i don't feel particularly tired but i know that if i had good sleep i'd "smash" everything (a popular phrase at work).

so while discipline, grit and determination has recently propelled me to where i am in my life now it has its drawbacks. but the calming thing is i'm not scared at all because i know this will pass as surely as the earth eventually will. i just have to keep my head down and when that day comes it'll bring my work to light, revealed with fire which will test the quality of that work. and if it survives i will be rewarded accordingly. and that's worth living for.