Optimist

Hmm so once again I'm sitting in front of my computer with half the day gone and yet another half to go without anything really planned.

It's weird but despite the freedom of not working or studying full time, it isn't the totally awesome lifestyle people would have you believe. I guess one of the cons is that hardly anyone is free to hang out with you because everyone's either studying or working. Damn!

But I make do with what I have. Don't get me wrong, because I'm so not having a gripe. So I manage to do the things I like doing like watching movies and taking KJ for walks.

I was thinking recently I might ring up Hugo Personnel and ask them if they have any work as well. Since I'm only working about 20 hours a week I can fit more in and perhaps have more cash inflow to fund my Asia trip at the end of the year.

I've been pleased getting stuff out of the way as well, that I would NEVER get done if I was working or studying full time. All these little loose ends that have been only tied up recently has eased a lot on my mind. Although my mum would vehemently object to that and immediately point out the current state of my room.

Hmm but then again a lot of people are also telling me to chill out now, whilst I can because they all warn me of the painful life I have ahead of me when I begin full time work in March next year. I guess I have a fair idea of what's in store for me but oh well, everyone has to work full time to earn a decent living right?

I've also been thinking about what society perceives as "acceptable" and what isn't. A fair majority of people would agree that if you don't have a legitimate disability and not working full time before you're 30 then that's considered NQR. Just typing that sentence reminded me of this radio segment I heard last week on the way to work - this woman who'd never had a job in her life (I think she was over 25 and on the dole) and in her own words "couldn't be bothered" looking for a job, won $500 for being caller of the week because it was so ridiculous. I was a little annoyed that people like that are glorified. Yes it might sound ludicrous and it's funny and all, but in reality, rewarding someone a $500 cash prize for that is even dumber.

Then you have those lucky heirs who don't have to work if they don't want to. But I'm totally at peace with not being super rich because I believe it's a curse in a sense. I've seen so many documentaries on those people (yes, those people) and the ones that aren't grounded (which means almost all of them) have a really warped sense of reality. I was reading somewhere recently that most of the developed world had psychological issues one way or another and it was almost unheard of in Third World countries. It makes perfect sense though, because the more money you have, the more you worry about losing it or where more is going to come from. Or whether your friends are you friends because of you and not because of their loyalty to your money. And those kids who come up from poor beginnings are those that are the happiest, or really hard working because they know the true value of money.

I don't want to end on a depressing note, but I guess that's the way it is. You can either accept it, or get depressed and see a therapist - who will gladly help you out and take loads of your money. You can either live in a developed country and have psychological problems, or live in an undeveloped country and have health problems.

Damned if you do, damned if you don't.